Starving Chinese kids were why I had to gag down my peas.

My husband is like you, and also wishes for the absolute silence of my mind. But you’re right about green grass - I wish I could visualize happy memories or even picture the people I love.

Buckle up. You’ll discover we have some great advantages, but you may feel cheated out of some abilities, too. You can DM me if you have questions.

Total aphantasia? Same here, but:

No intrusive thoughts, ever.

No visions of, or reliving, trauma.

No sad-memory sounds or tastes.

No facades, so no energy wasted.

And if you got the SDAM bonus, you can re-discover all your favorite books and movies like you never read or watched them before!

The US has always been bleak, unless you’re wealthy and designated white.