Don’t forget to tip the self checkout.

Reposts aren’t a problem. Just because you’ve seen it before doesn’t mean everyone else has also seen it before. Don’t worry about them and just move on.

As far as I know you also can’t just buy the Larian engine. It’s proprietary.

Money is unavoidable but you don’t have to do a typical career. Maybe you could try one of those English teaching jobs overseas, or be a nomad doing odd jobs here and there and traveling around. Lots of paths out there, and some might be more care free than a typical 9-5.

Have you considered becoming a student? You might be able to get financial aid. It might not cover 100%, but you’d get to be around young people also discovering themselves.

You definitely didn’t deserve what you got. I hope you can find a path that feels at least a little more like what you want to be doing.