I feel down. I haven’t felt happy in a long while / few months. The danger of depression is there but I believe I’m not at that stage yet.
I’m down because I’ve made no progress at a project for work for a few months now. Everything seems to be breaking and out of my control, it’s a bit tiresome to deal with. Plus the Tariffs have derailed whatever FI plans I had, so I’m pretty much stuck here.
During lunch with my colleagues today some of them expressed that my home country is desirable to live in from a security and convenience perspective (from Singapore). But Singapore is also soul-less and boring, and that irks me. I still want to have the chance to live overseas in a cooler and more relaxed climate, but yeah with the job market being shit and tariffs ruining everything, I might be stuck in Singapore for life.
As someone that had a sterile childhood of all work and fenced play in Singapore - that sounds like an amazing and well-lived childhood, for the most part.